That's just life.
Facts of the moment:
- I hate the distance. I wish there was some way to merge my life here with my life there.
- I'm blessed with roommates who accept me exactly as I am, with whom I can discuss my relationship openly. I love this.
- I'm frustrated with my parents - my mother in particular - and can't see a way out of the cycle in which we've found ourselves as of late.
- Sometimes when I think about money and how much potential it has to completely devastate my life I panic and think it would be easier not to deal at all and just give up.
- It almost feels as if the whole world is trying to keep me from getting through college and I wish I had been prepared for how emotionally difficult this year would be. I dream of the ignorant bliss I felt the last two years when I thought that just once the world was going to give me a break and let me only worry about making sure I stayed focused in school. Instead of making me worry that I won't make it through school because of some external force in the world.
- I am stuck between wanting to move on with my life and wanting to hang on to every friendship that never meant that much to me anyway.
- I feel that there is absolutely no aspect of my life that I have any control over.
- I want to achieve the goals I've set for myself more than I've ever wanted anything before. I know that I will achieve them. I've never been so sure of anything.
- The lack of decoration in my room is driving me bananas. B-A-N-A-N-A-S.
- I can't stop collecting clutter. I collect it in every aspect of my life - relationships included. I can't even go through and delete people from my facebook who I haven't talked to since high school.
- I wish I had the money for a new car.
- I wish tolerance was as infectious as laughter, yawns, and music.
- I'm jealous of all of my friends who are getting engaged, married, and having children.
- I hate that Youtube has ads on their videos now. It fucks up my playlist and generally irritates me.
- I miss Erica and Callie so much it hurts.
- I fall deeper in love every single day.
- It feels like everyone in the whole world is losing weight - easily - besides me. It should be motivating but instead it's extremely discouraging.
- I hate having class at nine in the morning. I can't go to sleep at night so it'd be really nice if I could sleep in the mornings instead.
- I really like my voice teacher this term. But she's only here for this term and that disappoints me.
That's all.
- I hate the distance. I wish there was some way to merge my life here with my life there.
- I'm blessed with roommates who accept me exactly as I am, with whom I can discuss my relationship openly. I love this.
- I'm frustrated with my parents - my mother in particular - and can't see a way out of the cycle in which we've found ourselves as of late.
- Sometimes when I think about money and how much potential it has to completely devastate my life I panic and think it would be easier not to deal at all and just give up.
- It almost feels as if the whole world is trying to keep me from getting through college and I wish I had been prepared for how emotionally difficult this year would be. I dream of the ignorant bliss I felt the last two years when I thought that just once the world was going to give me a break and let me only worry about making sure I stayed focused in school. Instead of making me worry that I won't make it through school because of some external force in the world.
- I am stuck between wanting to move on with my life and wanting to hang on to every friendship that never meant that much to me anyway.
- I feel that there is absolutely no aspect of my life that I have any control over.
- I want to achieve the goals I've set for myself more than I've ever wanted anything before. I know that I will achieve them. I've never been so sure of anything.
- The lack of decoration in my room is driving me bananas. B-A-N-A-N-A-S.
- I can't stop collecting clutter. I collect it in every aspect of my life - relationships included. I can't even go through and delete people from my facebook who I haven't talked to since high school.
- I wish I had the money for a new car.
- I wish tolerance was as infectious as laughter, yawns, and music.
- I'm jealous of all of my friends who are getting engaged, married, and having children.
- I hate that Youtube has ads on their videos now. It fucks up my playlist and generally irritates me.
- I miss Erica and Callie so much it hurts.
- I fall deeper in love every single day.
- It feels like everyone in the whole world is losing weight - easily - besides me. It should be motivating but instead it's extremely discouraging.
- I hate having class at nine in the morning. I can't go to sleep at night so it'd be really nice if I could sleep in the mornings instead.
- I really like my voice teacher this term. But she's only here for this term and that disappoints me.
That's all.