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i'm single again. that one didn't last long. it's weird, i realized this last night...my only long relationships are with older guys. anyways, i think i'm going to stay single for a while (sure i say this now but when i find a guy i'm interested again i won't be saying that which probably won't be that long b/c i already have one guy i'm kinda interested in now). i think i'm just going to live it up for a while. jamie said something to me yesterday after me and tyler broke up and it's true. i'm never really happy unless i'm in a relationship. i guess it's cuz i know there's someone who's always there for me and cares for me. well not always but you know what i mean. i know that that guys going to be there for me if i need him. that's something that has to change. i knew i was afraid to be alone but i didn't know it was this bad. anyways...the whole me and tyler breaking up was....weird. like i said he was totally avoiding me so i talked to him 10 hour on friday and pretty much told him that i was fine if we broke up (since it was like we were already broken up anyways) but it was up to him and he said he thought it was best if we did. i thought i was going to be more upset than i was. i'm not saying i wasn't upset b/c i'm always upset after a break up even if it was short but idk.
i went fake-baking for the first time today!! it was sooo relaxing, even tho i feel so gross. when i was in there it felt like i didn't have a care in the world and that no one could interrupt my relaxing moment. i was listening to something corporate and then all of a sudden my 15 minutes was up. it went by soo quick. i'm going tomorrow too b/c it doesn't even look like i went. hopefully by monday it will look like i actually got some sun. well fake sun that is. anyways....i think i rambled enough for today. love y'all i'm out!