Your Promises, They Look Like Lies
Why can't my family act like an actual family? Why does my dad always treat me like the bad guy? Why can't I just move out already?
My mom asked me for a $1.50 today for the paper. I told her no, to find her own money. She yelled at me and I ended up just giving her the money. I told her "Isn't it pretty sad that you have to ask your 16 year old daughter for money?" She didn't like that too much. She told my dad and my dad came up and yelled at me. He told me mom was downstairs 'crying'. He always says that just to make me feel guilty. She is never crying though, which just pisses me off even more. He also told me I'm banned to my room for the rest of the day. That's fine. I have my laptop, ipod, phone, tv, and dvd player. He really doesn't think things through. Then somehow he found money for the paper. Like he couldn't do that insead of asking me? He is such a jackass.
I think sometimes he cares more about my sisters and mom more than he cares about me. I know I should be used to the feeling, but it still cuts deep whenever he does something like this. It just makes me need to move away just that more.
People think I'm not serious when I say I'm moving once I graduate. They probably all think I actually do it. Oh, how wrong they are. Once I graduate, I'm moving and NEVER coming back. I plan to sever all ties I have here. I will live in the shittiest apartment and work at a fastfood restraunt if I have to. I will NOT be asking for money. I have more pride than that. Unlike my dad who is 40 and still asks his mother for money because he's too goddamn lazy to get a fucking job.
I might as well say goodbye to my christmas presents now. I was going to get My Chem tickets and Doc Martens boots. Probably not anymore.
My mom asked me for a $1.50 today for the paper. I told her no, to find her own money. She yelled at me and I ended up just giving her the money. I told her "Isn't it pretty sad that you have to ask your 16 year old daughter for money?" She didn't like that too much. She told my dad and my dad came up and yelled at me. He told me mom was downstairs 'crying'. He always says that just to make me feel guilty. She is never crying though, which just pisses me off even more. He also told me I'm banned to my room for the rest of the day. That's fine. I have my laptop, ipod, phone, tv, and dvd player. He really doesn't think things through. Then somehow he found money for the paper. Like he couldn't do that insead of asking me? He is such a jackass.
I think sometimes he cares more about my sisters and mom more than he cares about me. I know I should be used to the feeling, but it still cuts deep whenever he does something like this. It just makes me need to move away just that more.
People think I'm not serious when I say I'm moving once I graduate. They probably all think I actually do it. Oh, how wrong they are. Once I graduate, I'm moving and NEVER coming back. I plan to sever all ties I have here. I will live in the shittiest apartment and work at a fastfood restraunt if I have to. I will NOT be asking for money. I have more pride than that. Unlike my dad who is 40 and still asks his mother for money because he's too goddamn lazy to get a fucking job.
I might as well say goodbye to my christmas presents now. I was going to get My Chem tickets and Doc Martens boots. Probably not anymore.