i know no one will read this so it really dont matter what i write
I miss this ol LJ. seriously. i use to write everything in here and didnt really care what others had to say about it ya know.
now its all myspace and facebook. i feel bad for the ol LJ lol
hopefully no one reads this anyways
Im just sittin here thinking about how things are soo different now and how i should have done so many things different but cant change and they dont matter that i would change them now.
I use to be so neive it was crazy. freshman and sophomore year wow. i had noo clue what was going on. i was soo in love with this jerk who treated me good but hurt me alot. and had someone who was amazing to me never would have hurt me if i didn't hurt him first who was basically in love with me. and i didnt see it. not until now. lookin back on it i feel so mean. i wish that i would have never hurt that person ever.
things are so different now. how do you go from people you coudlnt stop thinkin about to complete strangers. that when you see each other at school and you both look at each other on accident and look away real fast remember what was there. and thats why i think those moments like seriously sting. cuz ya both know that theres to much pain to fix it but at the same time it feels so crazy not to. i just wanted to tell them that i am sorry. and someday i hope that we can be friends. i really do. because we at one time were really good friends and what you thought mattered. and you were crazy about me too. i know it. now. but not then i didnt. i was to stupid to see it. kws im sorry i really really am.
i treated my friends crapy back then too. i was so worried about the "older kids" and what they thought and got to caught up im partyin it was insane. that i didn't even realize that till now and thats terrible.
and it chokes me up inside because im a senior now. ready to go. but i feel so bad. i feel like a bad person and i want everyone to know how sorry that i really am.
seriously.
i really hope no one reads this.
i just was lookin at old entries ooold ones and old myspace comments. and you cant go back. you cant get that time back as much as you wish you could. but you can close your eyes and remember those times as much as you want. but they will never be today...
and if people do read this. you can make fun of it. make fun of me. it dont matter. not anymore. its just an apology.
now its all myspace and facebook. i feel bad for the ol LJ lol
hopefully no one reads this anyways
Im just sittin here thinking about how things are soo different now and how i should have done so many things different but cant change and they dont matter that i would change them now.
I use to be so neive it was crazy. freshman and sophomore year wow. i had noo clue what was going on. i was soo in love with this jerk who treated me good but hurt me alot. and had someone who was amazing to me never would have hurt me if i didn't hurt him first who was basically in love with me. and i didnt see it. not until now. lookin back on it i feel so mean. i wish that i would have never hurt that person ever.
things are so different now. how do you go from people you coudlnt stop thinkin about to complete strangers. that when you see each other at school and you both look at each other on accident and look away real fast remember what was there. and thats why i think those moments like seriously sting. cuz ya both know that theres to much pain to fix it but at the same time it feels so crazy not to. i just wanted to tell them that i am sorry. and someday i hope that we can be friends. i really do. because we at one time were really good friends and what you thought mattered. and you were crazy about me too. i know it. now. but not then i didnt. i was to stupid to see it. kws im sorry i really really am.
i treated my friends crapy back then too. i was so worried about the "older kids" and what they thought and got to caught up im partyin it was insane. that i didn't even realize that till now and thats terrible.
and it chokes me up inside because im a senior now. ready to go. but i feel so bad. i feel like a bad person and i want everyone to know how sorry that i really am.
seriously.
i really hope no one reads this.
i just was lookin at old entries ooold ones and old myspace comments. and you cant go back. you cant get that time back as much as you wish you could. but you can close your eyes and remember those times as much as you want. but they will never be today...
and if people do read this. you can make fun of it. make fun of me. it dont matter. not anymore. its just an apology.