:-( My deep thoughts about my life :-(
Life isnt fair. It isnt fair how one person can have so many problems at the same time.I dont know how I handle it. No matter how hard I try it just keeps getting worse. I've gone through so much already in my 14 years then some people go through in their entire lives.
I hate having to always worry about whats going to happen to me and my sister if worst comes to worst. Right now its heading in the worst possible direction. Everything that could have gone wrong...did go wrong.I dont know what I am gonna do anymore.I dont know whats worse, right now worrying about what will happen,,,or the future when it actually does happen. The future is gonna be scary.Theres a lot to look out for. People coming home, helping people break bad habits, anniverseries, scary people, relationships, major family problems, Newspapers and news, serious life threatening surgeries, and a shit load of trials.I'm scared of the future and what will happen.(btw-i am not trying to make you feel bad for me,,i just feel like typing and getting this off my chest) It amazes me how people can change in such little time. One year they will be really healthy and in good shape...but at the same time the next year they cant get out of bed bc their body wont let them. Its painful to watch. Especially if its someone that you care a lot about. Your own family member. Your Father. Its getting really bad. It's soo sad. He doesnt think that he will make it. His Hernia was getting so big that it was gonna rip open..and it finally did. He is in sooo much pain. The doctors keep putting off the surgery. Stupid assholes. Cant they see what he is going through. I guess they dont. They dont care. they only care about their money. The money they charge for doing absolutly NOTHING except making us drive back and forth to the Philidelphia Hospital every week. I hope that he will be okay. This is all Hugo's fault. I hate him! That sounds really horrible...but if you were in my position you would understand better. He put my mother through soo much that with her condition she couldnt handle it anymore and she passed away. It was too much for her. Now as soon as it all started to go away he brought it back. Now its killing my father too. I blame him. Dad was soo healthy b4 4 years ago when Hugo came home. Its like he wont be happy till he makes me and Katlyn orphans. I fucking hate him! This isnt the 1st time i realized this. Just the 1st time I actually wrote it down. I have been so depressed lately. I hate it. I'm miserable all the time and i know that people can see it. Well...its almost 12:00 in the morning and school is tomorrow. I'm gonna look like shit bc i wont be getting any sleep(like usual). so i'm gonna go and try to sleep. Leave a comment if ya want. bye
-:-Brook-:-
<33 ?*?*?*?*? <33 I dunno anymore :-(
I hate having to always worry about whats going to happen to me and my sister if worst comes to worst. Right now its heading in the worst possible direction. Everything that could have gone wrong...did go wrong.I dont know what I am gonna do anymore.I dont know whats worse, right now worrying about what will happen,,,or the future when it actually does happen. The future is gonna be scary.Theres a lot to look out for. People coming home, helping people break bad habits, anniverseries, scary people, relationships, major family problems, Newspapers and news, serious life threatening surgeries, and a shit load of trials.I'm scared of the future and what will happen.(btw-i am not trying to make you feel bad for me,,i just feel like typing and getting this off my chest) It amazes me how people can change in such little time. One year they will be really healthy and in good shape...but at the same time the next year they cant get out of bed bc their body wont let them. Its painful to watch. Especially if its someone that you care a lot about. Your own family member. Your Father. Its getting really bad. It's soo sad. He doesnt think that he will make it. His Hernia was getting so big that it was gonna rip open..and it finally did. He is in sooo much pain. The doctors keep putting off the surgery. Stupid assholes. Cant they see what he is going through. I guess they dont. They dont care. they only care about their money. The money they charge for doing absolutly NOTHING except making us drive back and forth to the Philidelphia Hospital every week. I hope that he will be okay. This is all Hugo's fault. I hate him! That sounds really horrible...but if you were in my position you would understand better. He put my mother through soo much that with her condition she couldnt handle it anymore and she passed away. It was too much for her. Now as soon as it all started to go away he brought it back. Now its killing my father too. I blame him. Dad was soo healthy b4 4 years ago when Hugo came home. Its like he wont be happy till he makes me and Katlyn orphans. I fucking hate him! This isnt the 1st time i realized this. Just the 1st time I actually wrote it down. I have been so depressed lately. I hate it. I'm miserable all the time and i know that people can see it. Well...its almost 12:00 in the morning and school is tomorrow. I'm gonna look like shit bc i wont be getting any sleep(like usual). so i'm gonna go and try to sleep. Leave a comment if ya want. bye
-:-Brook-:-
<33 ?*?*?*?*? <33 I dunno anymore :-(