(no subject)
my brother came home.
he thinks that i didn't care if he came home. or at least he told my grandma that. and he should have learned by now, that if you get me in trouble and pick on me every time you come home, im not gonna be too excited to c ya.
i got my full licence.
i want to type something, and i keep writing it and erasing it, just thinking about you reading it, and i know it wouldn't be the nicest thing to say. because for once we are finaly comfortable (to a point) around each other, and i would be messing all that up because of my insecuraties.
i feel confused.
very confused...
wondering if im not pretty enough. (or if i am at all for that matter) i know amber says i am. but part of me thinks that she says that because she thinks she should.
wondering if its my personality.
am i too hyper?
i feel aweful for writing about this again. if i were you, i would be sick of hearing it by now
its not exactly that i dont have a boyfriend. its just that i cant get the one i want.
im not very good at keeping things inside
i feel the need to share whats on my mind.
but most of its inappropriate for public knowledge. nothing bad, dont worry, just stuff thats one-on-one kinda thing.
i just want to be friends, i really do
Gah, i wish that were true.
i dispise myself for thinking that.
i really dont want you to read this.
but knowing me ill tell you to check it out.
and then ill be in trouble, because then comes the awkwardness
and i like things the way they are.
why the hell do i feel the need to complain?
what is wrong with me!?...answer that, because i doubt anyone would comment, and their excuse will be "i didn't know what to say?"
gah you guys must be fed up with me by now
im thinking about moving to charolette with my dad.
but that means no Williams.
its two hours away...
you know in about ten min ill regret writing all this.
nope
actually
just 2 min.
well no...i didn't keep time
but now i regret it. because im not moving to charolette. i couldn't leave my friends here and things are actually working out with my mom
its just sometimes things get out of hand here and feelings get hurt
but hey life goes on :)
congradulations
you read all of my thoughts.
well most of them.
its almost ten o clock.
ill be going to bed in an hour or so
hm. ill stop writing.
and you know
i think i like chandler better
the character
but im deffinatly better friends with the person. <3
and i miss hanging out with him. *smile*
he puts up with me, what can i say.
"i love you guys to death..well not litterally...i love you guys the appropriate amount....thats aloud by law."
-chandler bing
see, im so weird, everything i do can be related to friends. *shakes head*
you will just have to deal with it
its my favorite tv show
and im not changing my mind about that.
but you guys should comment. and tell me what you think