thinking about my dad lately
in the past month i don't know what it is but i keep on thinking about my dad, such as what would i be like , how would my family be, and how would he be.! i think every second every day if he can feel what i can feel, if he cries the tears i do! i really just wish he was here, you have no idea what it is liek to lose someone that was liek one of your best friends, sometimes i feel like i just want to die so i can be with him, but why would i do that i have a whole life ahead of me! i wish that i could be with him you don't even know! there really isn't anything to do lately because at this time last year we were getting ready to go camping for memorial day, cleaning the trailer out and just spending time together. i get so pissed off and wonder why he is gone, why god took him away. it's so stressful thinking about it becuase at the same time you just want to die ! this summer is going to be the hardest because that is usually wehn we do everything together and this year it is not going to be the same! i can't believe it's alomost been a year! i can't believe that he has been gone for a year