I'll be your number 1 with a bullet. Sugar we're goin' down, cock it and pull it...
I've decided that summer=me being an insomniac. Let's see, it's about quarter-past 1 in the morning, and I am WIDE awake. Yup. I think I should take some hard-core sleep pills for now on. Or maybe.....naww......nvm....
I had orientation last night at Tar-jay. Not sure that I like it just yet, but I figure once things get rolling, I'll get used to it [or at least that's what everyone has been shoving into my head]. I just hate starting from scratch again, and the fact that I didn't really get to work in the department that I wanted to, doesn't make me any happier. Ah well. I guess I just need to give it time. And if it doesn't work out, I guess I will always have DP. *thinks about that for a moment and sulks* I really should have found a better job....
Woohoo. No one is awake. None of the ppl I talk to are online. And I'm grumpy and depressed. Who would have thunk? Me? Naww...couldn't be. And while I'm in this bad mood, I would just like to say that I'm not happy. I'm so sick of ppl telling me how 'beautiful' I am, how I am such an awesome person, and how I am so smart and will go far in life. Ok, just digest this for a moment. People give me compliments= Me hating them. Still don't get it? Ya, neither do I. I don't know, I just tend to get sick of it. I feel like they just say it just to make me 'feel better' but they don't really mean it. I mean ok, the only ppl that I believe when they say it are like my true friends, or people who you wouldn't expect to hear it from. But other than that, I just think it's bull. And I hate hearing it constantly. Maybe it's because I don't like the attention? I don't know. Maybe I've just got my mind so deep into thinking the opposite of this that I just can't understand why they would say it? Man. Wow. I must really need some sleep because this is really beyond me. And I'm sure that by the time I wake up later on this morning [assuming that I eventually fall asleep in the next hour or two.......or three or four.......] I will be totally ashamed of myself for writing this and I will then erase it completely. Until then, this is the way I feel.
Good Riddance.
I had orientation last night at Tar-jay. Not sure that I like it just yet, but I figure once things get rolling, I'll get used to it [or at least that's what everyone has been shoving into my head]. I just hate starting from scratch again, and the fact that I didn't really get to work in the department that I wanted to, doesn't make me any happier. Ah well. I guess I just need to give it time. And if it doesn't work out, I guess I will always have DP. *thinks about that for a moment and sulks* I really should have found a better job....
Woohoo. No one is awake. None of the ppl I talk to are online. And I'm grumpy and depressed. Who would have thunk? Me? Naww...couldn't be. And while I'm in this bad mood, I would just like to say that I'm not happy. I'm so sick of ppl telling me how 'beautiful' I am, how I am such an awesome person, and how I am so smart and will go far in life. Ok, just digest this for a moment. People give me compliments= Me hating them. Still don't get it? Ya, neither do I. I don't know, I just tend to get sick of it. I feel like they just say it just to make me 'feel better' but they don't really mean it. I mean ok, the only ppl that I believe when they say it are like my true friends, or people who you wouldn't expect to hear it from. But other than that, I just think it's bull. And I hate hearing it constantly. Maybe it's because I don't like the attention? I don't know. Maybe I've just got my mind so deep into thinking the opposite of this that I just can't understand why they would say it? Man. Wow. I must really need some sleep because this is really beyond me. And I'm sure that by the time I wake up later on this morning [assuming that I eventually fall asleep in the next hour or two.......or three or four.......] I will be totally ashamed of myself for writing this and I will then erase it completely. Until then, this is the way I feel.
Good Riddance.