I like to wheel it in and then spit it out, I'm frustrated by your apathy...
So this whole prom-date thing sucks. I'm so confused and messed up that I just feel like saying screw it, I'm not going because prom is retarded. Ok, well prom is kinda cool, it's just that I wish I just had a boyfriend so that I could be like, oh look, I have a prom date! That was easy! But no, now I'm like......yeah I'm going stag because I'm a cool chick. At first I had no problem going stag because I could really care less and prom wasn't a big priority. Well now that I realize that it is less than two weeks away, I'm beginning to fret because it seems as if everyone has a date, and I'm well.....date-less. Yes, I could have said yes to the person who asked me, but I didn't want to risk having a bad time because of me being too nice and not having the courage to actually say "no" to someone. So I said no. And now I have no back-ups (if that's not mean to say) because all of my close guy-friends are either taken or not going at all. But, I DO NOT want to go with just anyone because I'm desperate. That's just not me. I'd rather suck it up and go alone before I just take a random person just to say I have a 'date'. BullCRAP. And the whole 'me asking my crush to go with me' is definitely a no-no. Believe me, I've thought this over A LOT. It's just completely impossible and I am ashamed of myself for thinking of such an idiotic idea. He would never say yes, nor, would he ever ask me anyways. The possibilities are about 1 in a gazillion. I guess I just got my head so high up in the clouds from everyone giving me false encouragement that I think that of course he's going to say yes! Why shouldn't I ask him? Well it's all crap, and all it ever was was crap. BS. I can't believe I even thought about it. And I can't believe I'm STILL thinking about it right now. I still have this 'what if?' thing in the back of my head that is always there telling me to just bite the bullet and do it. But yet, when I get the opportunity, I turn my head down and just walk right past him. I'm an idiot. Complete idiot.
ugh........I dunno. This is so petty and ridiculous that I can't even believe I'm talking about it right now. It seems like this is all I ever talk about. It's always on my mind. Sorry guys for being so obsessive. I'll try to cure this sickness soon.
Ok. I'm going stag and that's all there is to it. I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
PS- Green Day is tomorrow night!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D XD
ugh........I dunno. This is so petty and ridiculous that I can't even believe I'm talking about it right now. It seems like this is all I ever talk about. It's always on my mind. Sorry guys for being so obsessive. I'll try to cure this sickness soon.
Ok. I'm going stag and that's all there is to it. I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
PS- Green Day is tomorrow night!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D XD