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So yeah, most of you know now. I am single. It happened Wednesday night. Ben was at church. Was on leave for like 5 or so days before that. Not a damn call. Not even for my birthday. So I saw him. And I told him iwanted to talk to him afterwards. So we talked. He believes that he is not coming home from Iraq. Thus, he doesn't want to be close to anyone at all right now. He wouldnt come out and say I am breaking up with you. Even when I asked him if he was. So I asked him if I should try to move on. No words, just a head nod. Nothing more. So it's over.
Right now, I feel so alone. And rejected. The rejected part is because of something else which is confusing and I don't really want to get into it right now.
I don't even know where my life is headed anymore. I have no clue what I want to do with my life after I graduate college. I just don't know what to do. Almost like there isn't anything to work towards anymore.
Right now, I feel so alone. And rejected. The rejected part is because of something else which is confusing and I don't really want to get into it right now.
I don't even know where my life is headed anymore. I have no clue what I want to do with my life after I graduate college. I just don't know what to do. Almost like there isn't anything to work towards anymore.