S and I started being For Realz paid by solicitors last month. It's quite dizzying.
At the beginning of August, gleeful at the fact that after paying back savings... and tax... and putting more into tax... and putting aside my month's spending needs... and putting half of what was left over into savings... I still had a bit of "mad" money left over, I headed over to iTunes and grabbed the first fistful of music that occurred to me to want.
I bought Arcade Fire's "Funeral," Feist's "The Reminder," Regina Spektor's "Begin to Hope," Florence + the Machine's "Lungs," and The Dresden Doll's self-titled album. I then transferred all five, in their entirety, onto my Shuffle to get used to them.
I wear my Shuffle when I run, and I've been running on average two to three times a week for the past three months. And as Shuffle shuffled, I happen to have heard the song "Half Jack" by The Dresden Dolls quite a number of times. I didn't really catch all the lyrics, but loved it anyway.
Well, tonight I looked at the lyrics. And I wonder if it was some sort of intuition that made me love it, or if I subconsciously did hear the lyrics, because this song describes my identity. It says things I've been saying for years about who I am/believe I am/would rather I wasn't. It's amazing. Here it is.
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Lyrics [ETA -- g'naw... having watched the fan-made video, it's a bit overdramatic. Maybe just play the music and read the lyrics without watching the video. There doesn't seem to be an official one that I can find.]