Sep 07, 2003 01:38
Well, no looking back now. The rains have begun, and this being Vancouver, they may well go on until May. Or perhaps the sunny weather will return and we will have a September summer. All I know is that I had forgotten that I remembered rain in Vancouver. Calm, steady, determined, oozing out of the atmosphere almost... well, once the fifteen minute thunderstorm that began it all had blown over, that is. I just pray it's falling in Kelowna.
The career counsellor today was... urgh. An hour and a half of frustration but I think I needed it. I still have the same three potential paths -- work here, work England, go to Turkey... but still more determination to go to Oxford at the end of it, still more certainty that that will take me to the right place. A bit more clarity about the possibility of a "work here" path, and a few leads of places I could call either for further job-hunting tools or perhaps even for employment (Immigration Services is one possibility).
I think the rain is moving me closer to a decision, however. I crave stability. Perhaps... perhaps I stay.
"She can see where the river flows to the sea,
Like a babe into mother's care
Somehow, the longing seems so far away
The innocence is wasted and aware
Look at the child, with the dream in her eyes,
Holding it deeply inside her,
Home.
Home.
Home.
Home..."
rain,
vancouver,
life decisions