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So it's time for an update. It's been a very trying week for me and my family. I went to school on Monday thinking that everything was fine at home. When I got home about 4 o'clock, I found my mom and dad sitting on the sofa. Mom's face was drooping on one side and she said she just didn't feel right. Her entire left side was weak. She also had a headache that wouldn't go away. Now normally this would actually not concern me so much becuase mom has had Bell's palsy for many years now. The thing that bothered me was that it was the opposite side of the face and it was worse than normal. Her speech was also slurring. I told my family right then and there that she needed to go somewhere. Dad took her to patient first because she wanted to go there. They proceeded to tell her she needed to go to the ER as I had suspected. She was admitted on Monday night to JW. She had a CT scan performed, but it didn't really show anything. While she was in the hospital she had a stress test done on her heart, vascular studies (ultrasound of her arteries and veins) and an MRI. The MRI showed that she had a small vessel stroke. This stroke is being accompanied by severe Bell's palsy. She is still having some horrible headaches and pain as well as muscle spasms that really freak me out. I have lost my mom in some ways because I don't know if she will ever be the same again. She came home on Thursday night and I woke to her crying in severe pain and she was afraid to close her eyes for fear that they may never open again. I have never felt so heartbroken and scared in my life. I was running on autopilot until Wednesday when I finally broke down in Matt's arms. After Wed, I was able to feel again and I am now coming to terms with my feelings. The doctors say that it is not the question of if a large stroke is going to happen, it is when. She needs to make some serious lifestyle changes to help stave it off for quite some time. I can only hope that she does as the doctors tell her to do so that I have my mom around for quite some time. She's only 47 years old. She's too young for all of this. I am so scared that she will never see me get married or see her grandchildren when they come along. I am fearful of so many things right now. I might seem okay when you talk to me, but I am struggling inside to keep it all together. If not for Matt and my dad, I don't know where I would be right now. So my request from all of you guys is to keep my mom and my family in your prayers. Pray for a speedy recovery for her and that her life changes for the better.
Love,
Cass
Love,
Cass