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[broknyetbreathn]

please just hold me and tell me it is all a dream and that it will all be over soon
tell me that none of my deepest fears are coming true and that i am imagining all this
just let me know that everything will be alright
convince me that i am strong enough to handle anything that comes my way
hold me and comfort me and show me what i am worth
believe in me like i believe in you
just tell me the past 8 years never happened and my life is perfect
but please dont say it if its a lie

i just need comfort i just need relief i just need something stable i just need her to be alright i just want to save her i just want to save myself

its all too much it has been for too long
i dont think i can do this anymore
i dont think i can sit in my own body day in a day out and watch this and know i cant do shit about it
i just want to save her
i need people to hold me while i save her because of how weak i have become

i am not alright