I just gotta say it.
There's this weird feeling i'm feeling right now. it's like a sharp gut feeling.. as if some ax murderer lunged his ax while you were running and it striked you right ont eh side. and blood's gushing every which way, and you just don't knwo what to do, what's reeling around in your mind and all you want to do is breathe. breathe just one more gasp of air and tell everyone what happened and that you love them and that its not their fault. think of all the things that you regret and wish you've done something you've been holding off doing. It's pain stabbing, tear jerking. holy mother.. and it's like there's someone I really want to talk to but I can't and it's painful. I can't I cant I can't. It's like a barrier wall formed around them and me, and now it's too high for me to start over and break it dwon. I really wish I could go back to the beginning. the whole beginning right to when my parent's just borned me. Does that even make sense? I wan't to do everythign over. maybe then we'd be- everyone who's come in contact with me be different in a better way. maybe then i could have met other peopel i haven't before and make new friends. i hate you, life. why do you have to play thes emind games with me? I'm tired of playing, I quit. Frozen in time forever with this ax stuck inside of me, warmth sipping slowly away. Just let me rot and decay right now. ther'es no use in saving me. i'm already dead.