Oct 12, 2011 08:08
I wasn't shocked to hear about one of the girls from the Springs committing suicide, I was rather surprised that she hadn't succeeded in her past attempts. Kitty, Jessica...whatever you wanted to call her.
I cannot fathom how you can do that to other people. Sure, I've been suicidal at a few points in my life; but I thought about the impact it would have on my family and friends. I guess that you need to be really narcissistic to actually carry it out.
The person I knew, may not have any bearing on the person she became. She was always the one who had to be the center of attention, always had the last word. I don't know if she stayed that way. After a few things that she did, I cut off all contact.
I think I feel guilty for not crying. This was someone I knew and at one point loved like a daughter. I think it's because I'm not surprised. She attempted to do this about 5 years ago when we moved out here to Utah. Lucas took her to the mental hospital and took care of her after her release. I guess none of the friends she had thought there was a problem. Obviously, there was.
Farewell, Kitty. I hope that you find the peace in death that you sought so desperately in life.