The suckiness of my "life"
Every time things start to look up my world comes crashing back down. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't think there is anything that I can do. I'm so tired of keeping my hopes up and fixing everything and then see it go down the drain. It hurts so bad. I just want the pain to stop. I just want to be happy and stay that way. I understand bad shit is going to happen. I know more than most, more than I let on. But it's the unnecessary everyday bullshit that gets to me. The shit that can be helped. But no one wants to. We're just too busy trying to prove that we're right and whoever else is wrong. Fuck their feelings, Fuck the tears they cry. What does it matter? As long as they see that you're right. I'm just so sick of it. I just sit back and watch to see what happens. It's like I'm frozen in place watching my car crash. And all I can think about is that you don't care. And maybe you don't. At least not about this. I just can tell. So here I'll sit...frozen. I be waiting here for you to help me move.