...I....am...Killed...

[brokinsound]

Sorry... dear diary... but this is going to be dark...

So many events lead up to...this current down fall....

but....

Ok...I'm hopefully addicted to any kind of pain killer.....

so theres that....

I'm an alcholic.....and no matter how I try...I can not kick it.....

so...yeah...there is that....

which leaves us too....

wait for it...

now...

today....I like seen some one die....blood...brains....just...I don.t know...that stuff always fucks me up.....

then going down to the provo/orem area....reminds me of cj and dylan times...and sadie times.....not sure how to process that....just really didn't sit well....

then a long....long...too long talk to my very....very first love.....bah....

life has it against me....

so here we stand....fuck movies....I'm done....I give up.....love fails in movies....love always fails....

I'm a shitty writer.....so yeah....

this is my life...and I will always be a nothing...

my give up...

5 year plan?

addiction....

alcholism...

bipolar....

manic depressive...

and going no where....

so more of the same...like the last five years.....

I miss my best friend......

So I still owe you a mix...and its still coming...but you won't like it....well the first one.....but its still coming...so......wait for it...

hehe

But it has been a dark road....I'm sorry diary...but the road ahead is about to be the darkest.......see you on the other end....good bye....