And again
So I only post here when I'm annoyed about something. Or so I have noticed.
So Mike and I got back together a little after Christmas. And he is upsetting me to the point that I'm not interested in persuing anything more with him. I call and ask him if he wants to do something...he says he has to check and then he'll get back to me. Never calls, and when I call him, he's gone out. Four hours later, he's still out. And it isn't even like I whore him for attention...I see him once a week, two times a week at best. And it makes me feel like shit when he does this. And every fucking time I tell him how much it upsets me, he apologizes and promises to make it up to me and try harder...and for a short while he does, and then reverts back to his old behavior.
I'm going to demand that he get a cell phone if he wants to continue things. Part of the problem lies with the fact that if he isn't home, I have no idea where he went, when he'll be back, or how to contact him. If an emergency arose, I would more than likely be unable to reach him for 42 hours or more. He doesn't purposely make himself unavailable, but he just has no idea how to deal with people. Somewhere along the line he did not learn the basic etiquette when dealing with people I think. It's only common sense that if you are going to go out and not see someone when plans are up in the air...that you call them to tell them what is going on.
I love him, I really do, which is why this upsets me so much, and why I can't break-up with him. I'm really lost as to what to do. I don't want to lose him, but then again I don't think I can continue to take this behavior. And I don't know which is worse...losing him, or continuing to allow him to do these things. It hurt so much when we broke up in August, and I'm still in a kind of fragile mental state after going off my Lexapro...I'm really not sure what another break-up would do to me :/
So Mike and I got back together a little after Christmas. And he is upsetting me to the point that I'm not interested in persuing anything more with him. I call and ask him if he wants to do something...he says he has to check and then he'll get back to me. Never calls, and when I call him, he's gone out. Four hours later, he's still out. And it isn't even like I whore him for attention...I see him once a week, two times a week at best. And it makes me feel like shit when he does this. And every fucking time I tell him how much it upsets me, he apologizes and promises to make it up to me and try harder...and for a short while he does, and then reverts back to his old behavior.
I'm going to demand that he get a cell phone if he wants to continue things. Part of the problem lies with the fact that if he isn't home, I have no idea where he went, when he'll be back, or how to contact him. If an emergency arose, I would more than likely be unable to reach him for 42 hours or more. He doesn't purposely make himself unavailable, but he just has no idea how to deal with people. Somewhere along the line he did not learn the basic etiquette when dealing with people I think. It's only common sense that if you are going to go out and not see someone when plans are up in the air...that you call them to tell them what is going on.
I love him, I really do, which is why this upsets me so much, and why I can't break-up with him. I'm really lost as to what to do. I don't want to lose him, but then again I don't think I can continue to take this behavior. And I don't know which is worse...losing him, or continuing to allow him to do these things. It hurt so much when we broke up in August, and I'm still in a kind of fragile mental state after going off my Lexapro...I'm really not sure what another break-up would do to me :/