Oh the drama
So, Mike and I have hung out twice since my last entry. First time came after I called him mainly because I am a wimp and was missing him. He asked me if I wanted to hang out, and I said sure. So he came to see me (his idea to come to Murray, which he HATES). We hung out for a few hours, and things seemed just....platonic. It wasn't awkward per se, but it was kind of weird, going from dating to...god knows what. We ended up making out, and would have done more, but I had a meeting to go to so none of that nonsense.
Then a few days later, I called him bored, and ended up going to his house. Watched a movie, fell asleep (as usual) and then we ended up having sex. I was confused as hell by the end of all that nonsense, so I called him yesterday. Apparently we are on a break now...so we can see each other, talk on the phone, whatever, but he doesn't want anything physical. Wants to take things slow. Which is cool with me I guess. I'll just have to try and keep my overly-high sex drive in check I guess. I'm just afraid that when it's all said and done...he won't want to be with me anymore. I'm not seeing anyone else, because I am more than willing to wait for him. And I don't know how I would handle him deciding that I don't fit into his life and future goals. Just hope I'm not setting myself up for all that hurt all over again.
Haha, Christina told me the other day "WTF you guys were made for each other. You're both crazy and weird. One minute your screaming at each other, demanding to know who the hell that girl was he was just talking to...next minute you're all 'OMG I LOVE U LOL'". Never noticed that before, but ok. She's nuts...today she asked me when we were going to get married and start having babies. Yeah, she should know me better than that. My ass is booking it out the door the second marriage is mentioned. I'm getting better about my committment phobia. But I really don't want to be even thinking of engagement of any kind until I'm a senior, and marriage is off-limits till after I am out of college...which is two years away. And I can tell you now, I won't be getting married in two years. I need to be in a relationship for a lot longer than that before I am sure marriage is what I want.
And kids...ohhhhh god. IF I have kids, I will have them all before I am 30, and I will have no more than 3, preferably just 2. And they will all be close in age, because I said so. Haha, god, now I'm not saying Mike is the one that all of this shot would be happening with...lord, we only dated for 8 months before this break began, so yeah. Who knows? I may never get married. It takes a special kind of person to put up with my bullshit, and said person may not even exist.
On a more exciting note, my period is being an asshole. I got a little light spotting a few days ago, and then I had a little more today. And very VERY mild cramps. Not my normal period at all, and it's irritating me. I'm not a very paranoid person, so pregnancy hasn't really been a possibility in my mind, but Christina has her fingers crossed *rolls eyes*
Equestrian team business is going well...my coach seems to think I am doing a good job, and I'll find out soon if I got picked to go to the first show. Probably not, but hey, a girl can dream can't she?
Then a few days later, I called him bored, and ended up going to his house. Watched a movie, fell asleep (as usual) and then we ended up having sex. I was confused as hell by the end of all that nonsense, so I called him yesterday. Apparently we are on a break now...so we can see each other, talk on the phone, whatever, but he doesn't want anything physical. Wants to take things slow. Which is cool with me I guess. I'll just have to try and keep my overly-high sex drive in check I guess. I'm just afraid that when it's all said and done...he won't want to be with me anymore. I'm not seeing anyone else, because I am more than willing to wait for him. And I don't know how I would handle him deciding that I don't fit into his life and future goals. Just hope I'm not setting myself up for all that hurt all over again.
Haha, Christina told me the other day "WTF you guys were made for each other. You're both crazy and weird. One minute your screaming at each other, demanding to know who the hell that girl was he was just talking to...next minute you're all 'OMG I LOVE U LOL'". Never noticed that before, but ok. She's nuts...today she asked me when we were going to get married and start having babies. Yeah, she should know me better than that. My ass is booking it out the door the second marriage is mentioned. I'm getting better about my committment phobia. But I really don't want to be even thinking of engagement of any kind until I'm a senior, and marriage is off-limits till after I am out of college...which is two years away. And I can tell you now, I won't be getting married in two years. I need to be in a relationship for a lot longer than that before I am sure marriage is what I want.
And kids...ohhhhh god. IF I have kids, I will have them all before I am 30, and I will have no more than 3, preferably just 2. And they will all be close in age, because I said so. Haha, god, now I'm not saying Mike is the one that all of this shot would be happening with...lord, we only dated for 8 months before this break began, so yeah. Who knows? I may never get married. It takes a special kind of person to put up with my bullshit, and said person may not even exist.
On a more exciting note, my period is being an asshole. I got a little light spotting a few days ago, and then I had a little more today. And very VERY mild cramps. Not my normal period at all, and it's irritating me. I'm not a very paranoid person, so pregnancy hasn't really been a possibility in my mind, but Christina has her fingers crossed *rolls eyes*
Equestrian team business is going well...my coach seems to think I am doing a good job, and I'll find out soon if I got picked to go to the first show. Probably not, but hey, a girl can dream can't she?