Have a nice fucking day. :D
I'm sick of this!
I'm sick of putting on a happy face for everyone and pretending everything is peachy keen. Because it isn't. Nothing has been alright in a long time.
I'm sick of pretending not to know anything, and pretending to be fucking inferior to the rest of the world. I'm not as stupid as everyone thinks and I'm sick of this fucking bull shit. I only do this so that people don't worry about me. So that they think I'm still just normal old happy Reyna, doesn't care about anything, stupid goofy little girl who's always joking around. But that just Isn't me. There' a whole other side to me that hardly anyone knows about.
My dad finally moved out. His last words before he walked out? "Don't end up like your mom." Well I'm trying, why would I want to end up like her? Middle aged and with a disfunctional family. But it's really hard not to end up messed up with her for a mother, she's fucking crazy and she's making my life a living hell.
Seriously I cry myself to sleep every night, hoping things will get better... But they never do. Nothing ever changes. I try so hard to please my mom, but all she ever does is yell and throw things and tell me all the things she wants me to change.
It's no wonder that my dad left her.
I'm just putting up the stupid facade to make everyone happy and it's only making myself more and more miserable. I'm tired of trying to be everything for everyone.
My grades aren't ever good enough, my clothes aren't ever good enough. I'm never good enough. So I just go on living and breathing and dying a little more inside. But not enough for anyone to notice my fucking feelings. I'm dying and no one's listening. Well, maybe I should just stop listening and do whatever the fuck I want to from now on.
Then maybe someone will listen
I'm sick of putting on a happy face for everyone and pretending everything is peachy keen. Because it isn't. Nothing has been alright in a long time.
I'm sick of pretending not to know anything, and pretending to be fucking inferior to the rest of the world. I'm not as stupid as everyone thinks and I'm sick of this fucking bull shit. I only do this so that people don't worry about me. So that they think I'm still just normal old happy Reyna, doesn't care about anything, stupid goofy little girl who's always joking around. But that just Isn't me. There' a whole other side to me that hardly anyone knows about.
My dad finally moved out. His last words before he walked out? "Don't end up like your mom." Well I'm trying, why would I want to end up like her? Middle aged and with a disfunctional family. But it's really hard not to end up messed up with her for a mother, she's fucking crazy and she's making my life a living hell.
Seriously I cry myself to sleep every night, hoping things will get better... But they never do. Nothing ever changes. I try so hard to please my mom, but all she ever does is yell and throw things and tell me all the things she wants me to change.
It's no wonder that my dad left her.
I'm just putting up the stupid facade to make everyone happy and it's only making myself more and more miserable. I'm tired of trying to be everything for everyone.
My grades aren't ever good enough, my clothes aren't ever good enough. I'm never good enough. So I just go on living and breathing and dying a little more inside. But not enough for anyone to notice my fucking feelings. I'm dying and no one's listening. Well, maybe I should just stop listening and do whatever the fuck I want to from now on.
Then maybe someone will listen