GIRLS
I write this entry out of pure misunderstanding, complete bewilderness and above all hatred for the female race. Girls take things to astronomical proportions and find ways to make the smallest things the largest blimps on the radar. I don't understand why I don't understand them more, considering I possess a vagina myself. Girls possess one thing men lack tons of. Jealousy.
Almost every girl I've ever encountered, minus my best friend and a few of my ex's, have completely hated me, and not for anything I've done to them. Just simply me being who I am. I possess something girls can't seem to ever find in themselves, confidence. & the second something appears to them that they can't control, beat or outsmart, they attack it because they're insecure with themselves and their state of mind.
People look at me and say "Well if you make yourself out to be a slut on Myspace and such, you probably are a slut". This could not be more wrong. There's nothing wrong with a girl having a little confidence is there? Do I like my body? Not always. Am I comfortable in it? Yes. & that's all that matters. Learning to control and appreciate and value your body and find true comfort in it, is the struggle that most girls can't compete with. But I have. & I won.
Do I wish I was a few pounds smaller? Yes. But couldn't I also be a lot larger? Yes. My body isn't exactly the way I'd like it to look but why not show off and find comfort in what I have? & that's exactly what I've done.
So what if I take provocative photos? So what if I get up every night on a pole like I intend on doing. I'm comfortable enough in myself that I can use gifts I naturally possess to make a good life for myself with very little effort. This isn't to say I'm stupid and can't put money on the table any other way. It's only to say I need excitement, and going to college for years to get a 9-5 desk job is not going to provide that.
The only support I need is that of myself, and my boyfriend. He's confident enough to know that yeah, other guys get to LOOK at my body for a few measily dollars, but I come home and FUCK him for free every night of the week. Sounds like pay off enough to me.
Here's the deal: You girls can try to attack me. You can try to belittle me. You can try to out-do me. You can try to tell yourselves you look better than me, anything at all to make yourselves sleep a little easier, but is it really going to change anything? If you have to downtalk and trash someone because you're so insecure in yourself, you are a pretty pathetic person and should probably just kill yourself anyways.
The sad thing is, you're probably not even jealous over anything involving me.
You're just jealous over WHO I have.
Almost every girl I've ever encountered, minus my best friend and a few of my ex's, have completely hated me, and not for anything I've done to them. Just simply me being who I am. I possess something girls can't seem to ever find in themselves, confidence. & the second something appears to them that they can't control, beat or outsmart, they attack it because they're insecure with themselves and their state of mind.
People look at me and say "Well if you make yourself out to be a slut on Myspace and such, you probably are a slut". This could not be more wrong. There's nothing wrong with a girl having a little confidence is there? Do I like my body? Not always. Am I comfortable in it? Yes. & that's all that matters. Learning to control and appreciate and value your body and find true comfort in it, is the struggle that most girls can't compete with. But I have. & I won.
Do I wish I was a few pounds smaller? Yes. But couldn't I also be a lot larger? Yes. My body isn't exactly the way I'd like it to look but why not show off and find comfort in what I have? & that's exactly what I've done.
So what if I take provocative photos? So what if I get up every night on a pole like I intend on doing. I'm comfortable enough in myself that I can use gifts I naturally possess to make a good life for myself with very little effort. This isn't to say I'm stupid and can't put money on the table any other way. It's only to say I need excitement, and going to college for years to get a 9-5 desk job is not going to provide that.
The only support I need is that of myself, and my boyfriend. He's confident enough to know that yeah, other guys get to LOOK at my body for a few measily dollars, but I come home and FUCK him for free every night of the week. Sounds like pay off enough to me.
Here's the deal: You girls can try to attack me. You can try to belittle me. You can try to out-do me. You can try to tell yourselves you look better than me, anything at all to make yourselves sleep a little easier, but is it really going to change anything? If you have to downtalk and trash someone because you're so insecure in yourself, you are a pretty pathetic person and should probably just kill yourself anyways.
The sad thing is, you're probably not even jealous over anything involving me.
You're just jealous over WHO I have.