im so sick of this.
i hate when people act like idiots. and call you names. they may think the names arent hurtful.. but they deffently can be. expecally when they come from someone you love or think//thought you love(d) alot. being called a bitch or being treated like a child is not cool.. and being called stupid all the time.. its jus not cool. i do have feelings.. and then when i get upset about it or cry they bitch even more and say how much they hate that shit. well you shouldnt of said the things you did to make me feel so bad in the first place. idk. it jus sucks. i heard your jr. year was super hard.. and it is. its been my hardest yet. expecally being away from sc. its jus too hard. and being forced to do something you deffently dont feel right doing.. it hurts. it makes you feel like they dont really care about you and//or your feelings. it awful. this is all an awful feeling. i jus want to scream and rip someones neck off. but all i can do is cry quietly so i dont get yelled at anymore than i am. i kinda jus want to curl up in a ball and die. im embarassed by my actions and by this person. i dont know why they do this sometimes.. i mean dont they see how odd it all is to me? i guess not. or atleast i hope not. i really hope they wouldnt want to hurt me like they are on purpose. who knows thou..
but i guess all i can do is jus forget about it all. who knows what that will mean in the long run. i jus think right now i need to cry and write or color. that should make me feel better.
i need help.