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[brokenxalive]

So work has been nifty.....I got kinda promoted already over to shipping....I had my first day on friday....i'm at the rent's house and erik is here......he's magical and well I dunno it's been along time since I have felt like this.....there's some drama with his ex....and it bothers me alot cause I feel like it's all my fault.....I didn't mean for all this shit to happen between us it just kinda did....I kinda wish I could go back and change it all cause everytime she calls/messages him it sets him off and after that he'll be in a ahorrible mood and all I wanna do is make him happy and console him but I feel myself failing at that......I dunno what's gonna happen between us.....the signals comming from his end aren't very clear....and i'm not a mind reader so who knows....he won't open up to me anywayz so fuck it what else more can I do?!?! ahhhhh it's just sooo frustrating to like someone and completely fail....

Gotta get back....cheesecake soon!!! it's my moms bday tomm. 41yrs old....man were all gettin old