yep in my blue teefuck with me and you will get your ass beat.

[brokenwithin]

Ok so heres a real entry or maybe some what of one.
I'm so apathetic lately.
So vindictive and so unpleasant.
I cant tell whether its the fact that I want him so bad.
And theres nothing I can do to make him like me.
Or maybe its because of all the crap thats been going on.

When will the maddness stop?

::haters want to fight me::

I mean I'm at a good point in my life woth friends.
I've got the best ones I could even imagine.
I have basically no enemies that I care to think about.

But it isnt enough.
I want him.
I have a million reasons not to want him.
A freaking million.

xlikeTHERAINfall: hes mean
xlikeTHERAINfall: everyone hates him
xlikeTHERAINfall: he cant fight
xlikeTHERAINfall: hes whiney

[but hes everything I want]
I havent wanted someone this much and couldnt have them.
Is this obsessive?
No.
I cant be.
I just freaking cant be.
I mean its atleast not stalker status yet.
Gooooooodddddd
[what am I thinking]
Why cant I be her..he likes her.