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everytime my parents or anyone yells at me...i get so depressed. it makes me feel like shit and that im not good for anyone or anything. if they make me feel like this, why should i stay? i have to listen to them, or else they would probabaly smack me, but do they listen to me? no. it makes me feel worthless, and useless and a big fat piece of shit. thats why im not a very social person, i am afraid its true. *oh look what you've done you made a fool of everyone, a fool of everyone* then they all gang up on me and dont let me talk, its quite rediculous. its like everyone is against me. all my family that is...except for my 1/2 sister, because shes the the only person in my family that even agrees with me on one thing. thats why i dont really look forward to seeing them. they gang up on me and make me feel like a fool. i wish i could just cry or beat the shit out of them.
i have decided that the week i turn 18, i am going to move out, with a person i can trust. i cannot stand living here anymore. right when it all starts to get better, its all goes downhill again, even worse than it was before.
everyone always tells me that i have gone through a lot. honestly, i thought most people went through this, but then they tell me they havent. it is a shock. i still do not think i have gone through a lot because of what has happened to some of my family memebers and the effect on them and some of my friends at school who live with single parents and have to work at the age of 14 to support their family and also raise their siblings. this world is ridiculous.
i have decided that the week i turn 18, i am going to move out, with a person i can trust. i cannot stand living here anymore. right when it all starts to get better, its all goes downhill again, even worse than it was before.
everyone always tells me that i have gone through a lot. honestly, i thought most people went through this, but then they tell me they havent. it is a shock. i still do not think i have gone through a lot because of what has happened to some of my family memebers and the effect on them and some of my friends at school who live with single parents and have to work at the age of 14 to support their family and also raise their siblings. this world is ridiculous.