Hoping To Start A Better New

[brokenwings369]

Everything seems to be getting better slowly but surely. My knee hurts a lot but I'm dealing with the pain the best that I can. Matt comes home today which I'm happy about cause been gone since Friday and I miss talking to my best friend. I can't wait till school I know it geeky of me but I missed it lol. I might have classes with some of my friends I'm hoping I don't get any with Alan but we'll see how that turns out. I ran into him Friday night at Duffy's when I was with Leslie, Robbie and Billy. I was shocked at first cause I'm like "Its okay to go there besides he doesn't work on Fridays" boy I tell you want I was dead wrong. He wasn't working but my mind failed to register that it was PAY DAY so DUH he would be there but I didn't think he would be there the same time that I was. Its been a little over a month since we broke up and kinda blew it off at first and didn't say anything to him when I walked right by him out the door. However later that night on my way home I got a text from him saying "Hey how are you? couldn't say hi lol" and that was kinda just a little on the random side. Come to find out from a couple of my friends he went to a party and was hailing to the porcelain gods mainly because he's a light weight one and he doesn't know how to mix his drinks. I talk to him whenever he's online to be civil but maybe I should just cut him off from my life point blank the end because of all the pain that he's caused my. I don't know what to do I can't believe that I was going to marry him. God what was I thinking there's nothing that hurts more than one side love. I actually was IN LOVE with him and he ripe my heart to little pieces but you know what I'm not going to let that bring me down. Besides I'm moving on with my life I don't need someone like him that is willing to throw away a great person so whatever. I deserve better than the ways that he treated me and one day I will find someone that loves me in every way. Right now my plans are just to relax and just live my life. Being single isn't too bad but it does have its low points of feeling lonely.
<3
Sasha