"then I'll dig a tunnel from my window to yours, I don't sleep til it's light

[brokenwinged]

so it's like
sometimes I think
"why do I do these things? these aren't normal things normal people do"

and
"just give in
and just believe

abercrombie and fitch the diet cola the breast implants
quarterback boyfriend
tan and bronze
my american future in khaki?"

but I can't, no matter how much I would love to stop waving and start drowning in an easy existence

because
once you've seen the truth
you can't convince yourself you see the lies.