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had quite the revelation this evening. i was sitting outside, crying, and i thought to myself, "what makes me happy?" and the answer was simple...making other people happy makes me happy. i want to dedicate my life to helping people, whatever it is. i want to donate all the money [$300] i worked for this summer, because i don't need it. there are people out there that have nothing, and they deserve to have more. i also want to become a Buddhist. i've always been interested in meditation, and leading a good life, so i think this will be the way. i thought medication would help with my problems, but i think once i find inner peace, then i will be happy.
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