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dear erin,
first off, if you did end up reading this i wanted to say sorry. yes, i'm apologizing. for being a jerk and not giving you a chance; a chance to explain yourself with full intent. when i called you during the last week of the summer, i was calling you because i was mad at you. i wanted to be mad at you, i never had any idea of trying to solve anything. i want to say sorry for ignoring your emails, ignoring your attempt to be friends, ignoring you. i should never have done it. When i called you that night, that should have been the beginning of our friendship starting over again, but instead i let 4 years of feelings come back to me, and it took over. i am weak, but i am human. i want to say it was never supposed to be this way. you and i were meant to be together for the rest of our lives, if not together in a relationship, but at least in a friendship. you were my best friend, and in a way, you still are. you know so much about me. more than anyone else knows. that's something that no one else will ever achieve, but i may be wrong. however, until then you are that person. i've had a lot to think about in the past few days, and i noticed that the one re-occuring theme was you. it was not a big cameo, but there was always a thought of wonder as to what you were doing.this letter...err, email to you is not an attempt to get you back into a relationship with me. i know that you are already happy in one, if not happier. this is more of a letter to let you know that i am still here. i never lost a thought about you, and i probably never will.
so you don't have to write back, you don't have to like me anymore, you just have to know; know that you still have a friend on the other side of this screen.
Sonny.