tonight tonight.
hi there. geez life can really be a major bitch sometimes.
today i went over to dan's house. it was really nice there with him. we ate dinner and watched fight club. but of course there had to be "drama" crap. i weighed myself. and it said 118 but the dial was messed up so dan said i'm like 115 or 116. that doesn't matter. gaining weight is depressing. i just feel bad sometimes for complaining about it. because i know people who are a lot more depressed about it than i am and tell me they understand my pain but that i shouldn't worry about weighing only that much. my body image just isn't where i want it.
the car ride home sucked. i held his hand so tight. i'm going to miss him this week. although he said we could probably do something every day this week exept for tomorrow. although i know that i'll probably have to wait to see him til friday. blah.
oh yeah. heather and butch (lara) called me today. i love lara's message to me, "this message is for butch. she smells like monkey butt." heh. at least someone got me to laugh.
i need sleep. i'm a walking fucking zombie. geez dan and i are talking about college again. how depressing.
goodnight.