sloitary confinement
i'm not even gonna pretend like nothing happened i know i've been writing alot about cutting and suicide but that's all that i have on my mind it's driving me INSANE! today i couldn't stop shaking durring lunch so i cut untill i felt like i was gonna bleed to death. i wish i would've. it would have been lovely to see that river of red just flowing from my veins. i think i might atempt later on this month so if anyone at school is reading this don't be suprised if i don't show up at school for the rest of the year after one of these days. but then again maybe no one will miss me after all. i just been feeling kind of listless lately so weather anyone cares or not after it's all over with it won't matter to me. it really doesn't matter now because in like 3 months i'll just leave the school and want even more to commit so why should i care. well i think i've had my "fun". back to feeling dead again.