Things ive learned...
* I do have an amazing attitude about life. I wouldn't want it any other way. Every day you waste depressed and just wasting away is one less you have to truly live and be happy.
*I don't care about the petty little things. Ex. The 'guy boob' scenario. They're gunna look. Weather you like it or not, why not just let them. They know who they have to love at the end of the night and if the trust is there it shouldn't matter. Fuck, they're only boobs.
*That said, I take the time to enjoy the little things in life. You have no idea how bummed i was that the stars weren't out at relay. I couldn't lay in my sleeping bag and fall asleep looking up there and letting my brain reel like its oh-so good at doing.
*I'm not afraid of being alone. If I died tomorrow or 65 years from now alone I'd be content. Life is what you make it.
*I don't regret anything about my relationship with rob. I don't regret the memories we had or the fun things that we did with each other because for a time, I was a happy happy person and I felt unstoppable. I took that with me and the feeling hasn't gone away. The feelings I have for him aren't going to disappear overnight, nor do I want them to. I want to take it for all it was worth, learn and grow and maybe if someone new comes along during my life I'll be a better person for it.
*I haven't gotten over him, I haven't moved on, but I'm slowly (....slowly) starting too. I'm not faking "uh, i'm over him" that just isn't happening right now and I'm sure I have a lot more bullshit to deal with until November when I can write him off for good but, I don't hate him and I never will. I forgot how strong I could be and how easy it was for me to stand on my own. I'm not afraid to fall in love again, because whats the point of living if you can't love and trust? I just need some time to remember how the "single" Jess used to be.
more later....pay per view tonight!! =]
*I don't care about the petty little things. Ex. The 'guy boob' scenario. They're gunna look. Weather you like it or not, why not just let them. They know who they have to love at the end of the night and if the trust is there it shouldn't matter. Fuck, they're only boobs.
*That said, I take the time to enjoy the little things in life. You have no idea how bummed i was that the stars weren't out at relay. I couldn't lay in my sleeping bag and fall asleep looking up there and letting my brain reel like its oh-so good at doing.
*I'm not afraid of being alone. If I died tomorrow or 65 years from now alone I'd be content. Life is what you make it.
*I don't regret anything about my relationship with rob. I don't regret the memories we had or the fun things that we did with each other because for a time, I was a happy happy person and I felt unstoppable. I took that with me and the feeling hasn't gone away. The feelings I have for him aren't going to disappear overnight, nor do I want them to. I want to take it for all it was worth, learn and grow and maybe if someone new comes along during my life I'll be a better person for it.
*I haven't gotten over him, I haven't moved on, but I'm slowly (....slowly) starting too. I'm not faking "uh, i'm over him" that just isn't happening right now and I'm sure I have a lot more bullshit to deal with until November when I can write him off for good but, I don't hate him and I never will. I forgot how strong I could be and how easy it was for me to stand on my own. I'm not afraid to fall in love again, because whats the point of living if you can't love and trust? I just need some time to remember how the "single" Jess used to be.
more later....pay per view tonight!! =]