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well, talking to people tonight have made me realize how unhappy I've been lately. Not all the time, but, in general. (I'm sorry about the emo-ness Julie. I'm trying, I really am) It kinda brings everything to a head. Atleast with some people. And I don't know which way in the fork to take.
I watched American Beauty tonight. And I kinda feel like that, where I've come to a roadblock, and have a few different ways to get around it. I could totally change my life, or try to keep going on the same path. And this path used to bring me so much joy and happiness. I used to look around me, and just marvel at how great my life was. Now I look around and I see crap. You know what the fuckin highlight of my day was? When I decided to let my brother back my mom's van out of the garage, and he ended up running it into the wall, and causing mad damage to it. That was the highlight because after the immediate yelling at and scolding and punishments, I had a laugh about it with my family. wow, how fucking pathetic.
I don't knwo what I want to write now. And
I watched American Beauty tonight. And I kinda feel like that, where I've come to a roadblock, and have a few different ways to get around it. I could totally change my life, or try to keep going on the same path. And this path used to bring me so much joy and happiness. I used to look around me, and just marvel at how great my life was. Now I look around and I see crap. You know what the fuckin highlight of my day was? When I decided to let my brother back my mom's van out of the garage, and he ended up running it into the wall, and causing mad damage to it. That was the highlight because after the immediate yelling at and scolding and punishments, I had a laugh about it with my family. wow, how fucking pathetic.
I don't knwo what I want to write now. And