Winter break and life update
So my school's winter break is drawing to a close and sincerely I should be packing what I have yet to do. Instead I find myself at the tail end of a downward spiral that I should recognize by everytime I come back to my mothers. Granted this winter break was better than any other I've had since I left high school 5 years ago and realized exactly how different I am from the people of my hometown. Part of what made this one better is I haven't sunk as deep into depression as I usually do. I had this break interruptes by a great abet short visit by a friend while in Missouri. The break was also interrupted by a 'kidnapping' of myself to my dear friend's place for NYE until that following Sunday. Otherwise I spent the break sleeping, playing my PS2, reading through most of the books I brought (including the last Twilight book) and heading to get on the computer. Granted all these things are great as distractions but there comes to be a point where dispite all the messed up stuff you read in books it's sad to end up thinking that all that stuff's better than your own life.
Which truly looking my life over it's not the worst it could be. My past is ten times worse than my present life. And parts of it I'm better about now since being made to confess during my last down period to a friend about everything and then coming face to face with such events as presented to me in a class I was taking last semester. One particular quote is reasonable but not quite able to be applied yet.. "You don't have to forgive them, you just have to love them." Which of course the trouble with that is loving them. Not to mention the mass messupness that this has put to my life and the lackness of the boys or rather men in it. (that's for another time or even phone calls.)
Otherwise onto happier news if there is that. I have friends or accquaintances that I didn't know I had before this break. I have now met others that I get along grandly with and really hope to talk more than I have with (flawedpottery). I head back to school tomorrow with the hope to grab books on Saturday and see a movie with a friend of mine that I rarely have gotten to seen.
I'm also dealing with I graduate in now about 5 months, May of this year. I have no idea what I want to do. I'd love to still be able to travel and see my friends. I'd really love to be making quite a bit of money. I want to actually be able to talk to my friends when I want and if they need me. But I honestly can't stand small towns, unless they're right next to a big one. And there must be people but also a Jeannie space. Add into that the sadness that as mentioned before monies have not been saved yet. *cross fingers*
Otherwise if people have a suggestion to what a person getting an English degree, with a natural talent to editing, could do as a job. Said person also has tons of theater and costuming experience as well as a bit in film. These suggestion be much needed.