I can do it... I HAVE THE POWER...
Recently I've started having an extreme dissatifaction with how I've allowed myself to stagnate. I like who I am, but not where I am. Every time I get ahead, I stop working hard because I've become complacent, gotten sick, lazy, or just plain. Or whatever excuse I can come up with, only to realize I'm not where I'd like to be. I've achieved very few of my actual goals. Not that I feel that makes me a bad person at all, just an unacualized one.
I feel positive, but it's so hard to actually do things. I know I should get up, exercise, study, and take care of things in general. But some how it's easier to do general time wasting. The crazy thing is I like working out and learning. But when it's not specifically for recreation, I don't want to do it. Sometimes I think I was trained wrong as a joke. I think I may have done better had I gone into ROTC, but that was another time.
What exactly do I want from myself? To be athletic again, a qualified chemical engineer, skilled in Chi Lin and Parkour.
I know I can do all of this, with only reasonable effort, spread over a long period of time.
I feel positive, but it's so hard to actually do things. I know I should get up, exercise, study, and take care of things in general. But some how it's easier to do general time wasting. The crazy thing is I like working out and learning. But when it's not specifically for recreation, I don't want to do it. Sometimes I think I was trained wrong as a joke. I think I may have done better had I gone into ROTC, but that was another time.
What exactly do I want from myself? To be athletic again, a qualified chemical engineer, skilled in Chi Lin and Parkour.
I know I can do all of this, with only reasonable effort, spread over a long period of time.