almost 2 years

[brokensalvation]

since I wrote in here.

I'm feeling quite depressed today, so just ignore this.

I wish Fred never learned about my main online journal site.
I wish he didn't learn my user name.
I wish I could be candid in there like I used to be.
I wish I could do what I want and be friends with who I want without it being a big deal to him.
I wish I could work on my jealousy issues.
I wish he could work on his jealousy issues.
I feel cut off and alone down in New Bedford.
I need to make friends down here but I don't know how.
I feel like I've missed out on so much.
I barely know what my best friend is up to.
I barely know if she needs me..
I feel like I'm just trudging through life to get by, not to live.

the baby's crying.