ahhh, love...
woah, man..
its beeen so long since i've been on here!!
okay so here's whats sup.:-)
you all remember vince?? the one i was like best friends w/ back in 7th ad 8th grade?? yeah, well he's back. he just got outta jail, again, because he turned 18. it was great seeing him. i couldn't stop thinking about him. i saw how he was going nowhere in life and doing nothing *cept ruining it* and i didn't like that. so i told him how i wanted him to be someone and how i wanted him to go somewhere and how i loved him and always have, but wasn't in love with him. he began to cry. which is AMAZING because vince...N.E.V.E.R. cries.. so the next day we started going out. things were great!! i was so happy and thought life was finally starting to turn around. then he told me that he never stopped doing drugs or drinking. and his friends told me he was probably cheating on me.
soo he broke up with me...on our 3 week anniversary. i've been sooo sad since then. i was crying for a week straight!! and it gets worse!! THE NEXT DAY he started going out with this fucking tweaker named kirstin. BUT he's still telling me he's in love with ME!! WTF!?!?! he says he doesn't want to ruin my life... ITS MY FUCKING LIFE!!! i still love him and want to be with him.. and i don't know how long that will last, but it feels like forever.. oh, and i told him about the fact that he raped me. *he never knew he did* he was fucking BAWLING!!!
so now there's this other guy i like, and i liked him while vince and i were going out too, but i was in love w/ vince, so it didn't matter. anyways, this guy's name is cj.. yes that's right, i like vince's 'brother' CJ. :-) and he likes me too. and this is why i ♥ livejournal, because i can say this. cj and i hooked up and are going out and we are not going to tell anyone because i don't want to cause a rift in him and vince's friendship, and i don't want him to get stabbed... because if you know vince, and how he feels about me, you know that he would probably stab cj. :-\
so yes, i like cj, and he likes me, and yes....i am still in love with vince. but honestly, if i had the chance with him again, i don't know whether i'd take it or not. i mean, i want to be with him so bad, but he's not going to change, and i know he won't. i see cj changing eventually *hes still young and just wants to party, but has his head in the right place* but vince, vince just doesn't care. he is so melancholy. and i'm just totally sick of it.
it is funny though.... most of his friends aren't even talking to him now because he dumped me. and because he's going out w/ kirsin now.
haha.
~♥~♥~
*)~(*anna*)~(*
sooo...what do you think?
p.s... cj and i hooked up on sunday..it was really fun, and nice...and well, lets just say it looks like my boobs got the shit kicked outta them.
oh yeah! and you all remember blake?? well, i saw him over the weekend. yeah, ermm, he wants to get back together......
its beeen so long since i've been on here!!
okay so here's whats sup.:-)
you all remember vince?? the one i was like best friends w/ back in 7th ad 8th grade?? yeah, well he's back. he just got outta jail, again, because he turned 18. it was great seeing him. i couldn't stop thinking about him. i saw how he was going nowhere in life and doing nothing *cept ruining it* and i didn't like that. so i told him how i wanted him to be someone and how i wanted him to go somewhere and how i loved him and always have, but wasn't in love with him. he began to cry. which is AMAZING because vince...N.E.V.E.R. cries.. so the next day we started going out. things were great!! i was so happy and thought life was finally starting to turn around. then he told me that he never stopped doing drugs or drinking. and his friends told me he was probably cheating on me.
soo he broke up with me...on our 3 week anniversary. i've been sooo sad since then. i was crying for a week straight!! and it gets worse!! THE NEXT DAY he started going out with this fucking tweaker named kirstin. BUT he's still telling me he's in love with ME!! WTF!?!?! he says he doesn't want to ruin my life... ITS MY FUCKING LIFE!!! i still love him and want to be with him.. and i don't know how long that will last, but it feels like forever.. oh, and i told him about the fact that he raped me. *he never knew he did* he was fucking BAWLING!!!
so now there's this other guy i like, and i liked him while vince and i were going out too, but i was in love w/ vince, so it didn't matter. anyways, this guy's name is cj.. yes that's right, i like vince's 'brother' CJ. :-) and he likes me too. and this is why i ♥ livejournal, because i can say this. cj and i hooked up and are going out and we are not going to tell anyone because i don't want to cause a rift in him and vince's friendship, and i don't want him to get stabbed... because if you know vince, and how he feels about me, you know that he would probably stab cj. :-\
so yes, i like cj, and he likes me, and yes....i am still in love with vince. but honestly, if i had the chance with him again, i don't know whether i'd take it or not. i mean, i want to be with him so bad, but he's not going to change, and i know he won't. i see cj changing eventually *hes still young and just wants to party, but has his head in the right place* but vince, vince just doesn't care. he is so melancholy. and i'm just totally sick of it.
it is funny though.... most of his friends aren't even talking to him now because he dumped me. and because he's going out w/ kirsin now.
haha.
~♥~♥~
*)~(*anna*)~(*
sooo...what do you think?
p.s... cj and i hooked up on sunday..it was really fun, and nice...and well, lets just say it looks like my boobs got the shit kicked outta them.
oh yeah! and you all remember blake?? well, i saw him over the weekend. yeah, ermm, he wants to get back together......