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[brokenpilot]

I have found myself wishing for so much lately, all I want to do is be happy. The only thing I want to do is be able to connect with someone and feel good about myself. I am slowly losing confidence in myself and I can't stand it. I want nothing more than to have the guts to just confront things head on, but it is just so hard for me. I don't understand myself right now and I don't understand you at all. I want nothing more than the courage to confront you and just try to overcome my fears.
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Next Friday I am going to St. Mary's, Pennsylvania to meet my Grandma's side of the family that I have never met before. I am pretty excited, it should be a good time.