my head hurts ...
Sigh... yesterday was rough. i just had an all around bad day. and keith had a hard day at work, and didnt end up getting his motorcycle till after 6, and there was a title issue, so he didnt get home untill after 9. so me, beana, and amanda, and travis went to the bowl o drome but some one was haveing a party there so we couldnt get a lane for an hour, so we decided to go to blue water lanes, our lane only broke like 5 times but it was amuseing and we had a good time. i got a 93 and a 84, which is uber good for me. so it got to be around 10 and bowling there is over at 12, and you pay 10 for the night, so i txt keith and ask if he still wants to come, because it would be a waste to bowl. and he was tired and a lil cranky and i was very cranky and annoyed, so after a breif almost conversation, he decided , proly for the best, to not come and see me.
i'm not even sure why i got so pissy, i just wanted to see keith, and i know he doesnt have contol over how late his dad wants to work. and that his motorcycle took longer to get, maybe i'm just jealous because now he has a motorcycle to make him smile too and use his time. i know its silly. but i couldnt help it i guess.
after my dad being an ass, telling me im not going to northern, and saying keith was going to leave me, and being stuck at a home show, where they were 10 people all day long. no i am not kidding. so yea it was boreing to no end. and gave me more time to stew and be grrish.
but after we left bowling i called keith, and we chated, and got things settled but it just came down to both of us being grumpy, and make each other more grumpy. i really wich i had gotton that hug, i miss him alot, i'm really sure why im so teary today, i think my hormones are out of wack, it is my 1st month on the pill. but man, it's driveing me crazy. gah. hopefully i'll get to see keith tomorro, i wanna hug him so bad. i feel bad about spazzy on him about being late yesterday, and being bitchy. he didnt deserve it, he just wanted to keep his promise to hug me, and i'm sure he smelled wonderfull and looked eatable.
my god, i'm a mess, my hormones need to stop being retarded. gah... I'm kinda hopeing keith will pop by the store today, but i think he's busy working on his bike. but its all good. the other day scott, an old friend i met at gibralter, was online and we chated for awhile, and today he called me... it was odd i havent talked (on the phone) to him since last year. and he acted like he wanted to come to the store and see me... i think it would be really werid... i just get the feeling he still likes me, but i could be wrong, i'm not very good at reading guys.
i just feel really distant from keith right now... and i need to see him i guess... even when we are talking on the phone he doent doesnt seem close like he normally does. but maybe he'll read my mind today and give me that hug. that would be great. very great actually. wells i think im done writing for now... ttyl
~Mya~
i'm not even sure why i got so pissy, i just wanted to see keith, and i know he doesnt have contol over how late his dad wants to work. and that his motorcycle took longer to get, maybe i'm just jealous because now he has a motorcycle to make him smile too and use his time. i know its silly. but i couldnt help it i guess.
after my dad being an ass, telling me im not going to northern, and saying keith was going to leave me, and being stuck at a home show, where they were 10 people all day long. no i am not kidding. so yea it was boreing to no end. and gave me more time to stew and be grrish.
but after we left bowling i called keith, and we chated, and got things settled but it just came down to both of us being grumpy, and make each other more grumpy. i really wich i had gotton that hug, i miss him alot, i'm really sure why im so teary today, i think my hormones are out of wack, it is my 1st month on the pill. but man, it's driveing me crazy. gah. hopefully i'll get to see keith tomorro, i wanna hug him so bad. i feel bad about spazzy on him about being late yesterday, and being bitchy. he didnt deserve it, he just wanted to keep his promise to hug me, and i'm sure he smelled wonderfull and looked eatable.
my god, i'm a mess, my hormones need to stop being retarded. gah... I'm kinda hopeing keith will pop by the store today, but i think he's busy working on his bike. but its all good. the other day scott, an old friend i met at gibralter, was online and we chated for awhile, and today he called me... it was odd i havent talked (on the phone) to him since last year. and he acted like he wanted to come to the store and see me... i think it would be really werid... i just get the feeling he still likes me, but i could be wrong, i'm not very good at reading guys.
i just feel really distant from keith right now... and i need to see him i guess... even when we are talking on the phone he doent doesnt seem close like he normally does. but maybe he'll read my mind today and give me that hug. that would be great. very great actually. wells i think im done writing for now... ttyl
~Mya~