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This first full week of school has exhausted me so, but yet I still find time to think about things I wish I didn't or that should be overlooked. I never see anyone. Well, I take that back. I see a few friendly faces which I'm thankful for, but I never get to see Kati P, Gillian, Amanda, JD, or Erika. Maybe once a day...give or take. (We need to hang out...barnes&noble, sno cones, whatever you name it.) John leaves early, happy for him. I get to see Dustin, but only during the sad excuse for a lunch we have which isn't long enough at all. Chris is still moving, and seriously after all this time I never thought he would go through with it. I dont feel its fair. I hate it, I hate this petty high school bullshit and everything that comes along with it. And it now just hit me how hard it is to get over someone, even if you already thought you were. I don't understand why feelings have to linger, I'm not pursuing them and that hasn't even crossed my mind...but they won't go away.
All of our friends were here, they all have gone home
and here I sit on the front porch watching
the drunks stumble forth into the night.
You gave me a heart attack, I did not see you there.
I thought you had disappeared so early away from here
This is the chance I never got to make a move, but
we just talk about the people we've met in the last five years
and will we remember them in ten more.
I let you bum a smoke, you quit this winter past.
I've tried twice before, but like this, it just will not last.
I know we're kidding everyone else, but are we kidding ourselves?