the fiction we live.

[brokenkatalyst]

I’m sorry that nothing is ever enough for you. I’m sorry that you can have all you ever wanted and still not be able to find beauty in this world. I am sorry that I cant love you enough, or that I love you to much, you see it is hard to really know, you change your mind so often. I am glad I came here for you so I can watch you be unhappy and feel so inadequate and give up everything about me to make sure you maintain you. I guess that is the way of things. Now that I am here, now that I have ruined everything else, now that I am pregnant and cant leave even if I want to, now you decide that maybe we make better friends, maybe we are a great team but just maybe we shouldn’t be together romantically. If you wait long enough it is true that history repeats itself. I can see it happening. Watch it in my minds eye. I am trapped now, really truly for the first time in my life trapped.

Go ahead and ask me again why I cry, then go ahead and blame it on hormones,, it makes it easier for everyone when you do.