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i feel ill
my head hurts from all this thinking ive been doing
im scared about 2moro.
everythings too hard at the moment.
im fed up of getting sympathy. i dont deserve it.
ive realised alot about myself lately.
i need 2 get all the things out of my life that are bad for me. (people/things)
i made one step 2day that i sort ov regret but its a step i cudnt see myself taking for a long time, n ive shocked myself.
turns out u dont always need someone as much as you think u do.
i dont no if im thinking that becus my heds so muddled up. im convincing myself i dont need them. i guess deep down i do, but its just easier to pretend. pretend everythings fine. pretend im happy.
but theres only so much pretending you can do. and you can only kid yourself to a certain extent.
but i havent reached that point yet n im happy enuff with my fake life.. i guess.
i make no sense.
i also wanna make an apology.
to ione. for wot i said. shell no wot im on about. if your mad tell me. id rather no than u bottle it up. i can tell ur not happy. n i feel amazingly guilty.
my head hurts from all this thinking ive been doing
im scared about 2moro.
everythings too hard at the moment.
im fed up of getting sympathy. i dont deserve it.
ive realised alot about myself lately.
i need 2 get all the things out of my life that are bad for me. (people/things)
i made one step 2day that i sort ov regret but its a step i cudnt see myself taking for a long time, n ive shocked myself.
turns out u dont always need someone as much as you think u do.
i dont no if im thinking that becus my heds so muddled up. im convincing myself i dont need them. i guess deep down i do, but its just easier to pretend. pretend everythings fine. pretend im happy.
but theres only so much pretending you can do. and you can only kid yourself to a certain extent.
but i havent reached that point yet n im happy enuff with my fake life.. i guess.
i make no sense.
i also wanna make an apology.
to ione. for wot i said. shell no wot im on about. if your mad tell me. id rather no than u bottle it up. i can tell ur not happy. n i feel amazingly guilty.