You all up in my koolaid and you don't even know the flavor!
3 more days till everything changes. I don't like it. So much has been changing lately every time I wake up the world is different and now this the most drastic change ever. The departure of the girl I've called my best friend sense 6th grade the only person down here that I've known basically sense I moved down here and stayed close with the entire time. That birthday party in 5th grade was fate and Keri and I were meant to be bff aff, but is her leaving fates way of telling me its over? I granted you 8 years of friendship, faith, and love but now its time to let the hurting begin? Fate is cruel.
I'm so depressed over her leaving that I don't know what to do, it doesnt seem real you know? It won't until she's gone. Until I can't say "I'm bored I wonder what Keris up to, maybe we can chill"
UGH!!!!!
On top of all that I'm still pretty bumed about the sean thing I mean I've said my share and made peace with the situation but He was my boy ya know, my best guy friend, my best work friend, and so much more. . . and it just hurts to not have that all of a sudden. I mean It's better this way I'm sure. I care about him enough to know that, but really it sucks a lot because there's this big hole there right now that's gunna take some time to fill. It's weird to not talk to him everyday, weird to dread working with him as aposed to looking forward to it so much. I dunno like I said everytime I wake up the world is different.
Oh andddd now that Charles is back I'm getting like the shittiest schedules and sections . . . seriously it's like I have to prove my self all over again, and thats so not fair to me. Dennis, Justin, and Nate trust me. Justins put me on big partys, he's given me friends of the owners ect ect. Dennis always gives me anyone who had a bad experience the last time or is upset by there server, and he even wanted to put me behind the bar! Nate who on one of his first days with me on the floor got a table that complained about me non stop still gives me good sections and was all excited to help me train bar! But Charles my favorite manager who tells me I have so much potential seems to have no confidence in me. I know he'll get over it, but I want him to know I'm a good server and in trying to prove my self I just get nervous and end up fucking up. Its a bad scene! I feel like I did my first week on the floor like everyone was babying me waiting for me to fuck up thinking I couldnt hold my own, and I need schulman to say "who are they Adrienne? They're no one!" everytime I go to take a table just to calm my nerves. Eck whatever.
On a brighter note I got a new tattoo. I <3 it soooo much. Also I bought cute new crap from AE yesterday, and got keri the 1st of her Bday gifts. Not to mention I've been seeing my Lali doll more, and I finally got to see butterfly effect the other day at nates. I really wish my black eye would like go away tho. I mean at first it was kinda hott like a kewl excessory. . . "who needs makeup when you can look like you just beat a bitches ass" but now that its all faded it's just sort of gross. Ewwww.
Uhm I can't think of anything else to say really. . .
I love Keri, Karla, Amber, and my big bro all like super whoa.
HOLLLA!
Adrie
I'm so depressed over her leaving that I don't know what to do, it doesnt seem real you know? It won't until she's gone. Until I can't say "I'm bored I wonder what Keris up to, maybe we can chill"
UGH!!!!!
On top of all that I'm still pretty bumed about the sean thing I mean I've said my share and made peace with the situation but He was my boy ya know, my best guy friend, my best work friend, and so much more. . . and it just hurts to not have that all of a sudden. I mean It's better this way I'm sure. I care about him enough to know that, but really it sucks a lot because there's this big hole there right now that's gunna take some time to fill. It's weird to not talk to him everyday, weird to dread working with him as aposed to looking forward to it so much. I dunno like I said everytime I wake up the world is different.
Oh andddd now that Charles is back I'm getting like the shittiest schedules and sections . . . seriously it's like I have to prove my self all over again, and thats so not fair to me. Dennis, Justin, and Nate trust me. Justins put me on big partys, he's given me friends of the owners ect ect. Dennis always gives me anyone who had a bad experience the last time or is upset by there server, and he even wanted to put me behind the bar! Nate who on one of his first days with me on the floor got a table that complained about me non stop still gives me good sections and was all excited to help me train bar! But Charles my favorite manager who tells me I have so much potential seems to have no confidence in me. I know he'll get over it, but I want him to know I'm a good server and in trying to prove my self I just get nervous and end up fucking up. Its a bad scene! I feel like I did my first week on the floor like everyone was babying me waiting for me to fuck up thinking I couldnt hold my own, and I need schulman to say "who are they Adrienne? They're no one!" everytime I go to take a table just to calm my nerves. Eck whatever.
On a brighter note I got a new tattoo. I <3 it soooo much. Also I bought cute new crap from AE yesterday, and got keri the 1st of her Bday gifts. Not to mention I've been seeing my Lali doll more, and I finally got to see butterfly effect the other day at nates. I really wish my black eye would like go away tho. I mean at first it was kinda hott like a kewl excessory. . . "who needs makeup when you can look like you just beat a bitches ass" but now that its all faded it's just sort of gross. Ewwww.
Uhm I can't think of anything else to say really. . .
I love Keri, Karla, Amber, and my big bro all like super whoa.
HOLLLA!
Adrie