Well, it's a very long story, you see. Short story is: I have a physical disability since birth and since a few years I also suffer from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. This combination is... kinda hard to live with. I had to quit school a couple of months ago because I simply couldn't go on, it all became too much. And that was just... killing. School was everything I had. Ever since I was little, I wanted to go to uni. I wanted to study English. And after all those years of hard work, all of that suddenly came to a stop. Also, thanks to my disability and CFS, it's almost impossible to find a job. So I now have to watch everyone around me going to uni or having a job, moving out of house to live on their own and I'm just sitting at home. It just... sucks.
Also, that dream... I hate living in the Netherlands. I truly hate it. I always felt that I don't belong here. So I wanted to move to another country someday. But because of my disability, I can't. The Dutch government pays me social security, but whenever I move to another country, they'll stop my income. And I only qualify for a social security in another country if I am able to pay three years worth of taxes.
*hugs back* I'd like that... Do you still use your bethycool655 msn?
Omg can we please fangirl about Sherlock together? I am in serious need of someone who shares my obsession love for that show.
THAT WOULD BE SO AWESOME. Yeah, I'd like that! Maybe we can :3
Also, now that I'm already rambling with honesty and such... I get so fucking insecure every time I talk to you xD I'm really insecure about my use of the English language, so whenever I talk to a native speaker, I'm always afraid to make mistakes and such and god, I never have that fear when I actually speak to someone irl... And now I feel foolish for saying this xD
Well, it's a very long story, you see. Short story is: I have a physical disability since birth and since a few years I also suffer from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. This combination is... kinda hard to live with. I had to quit school a couple of months ago because I simply couldn't go on, it all became too much. And that was just... killing. School was everything I had. Ever since I was little, I wanted to go to uni. I wanted to study English. And after all those years of hard work, all of that suddenly came to a stop. Also, thanks to my disability and CFS, it's almost impossible to find a job.
So I now have to watch everyone around me going to uni or having a job, moving out of house to live on their own and I'm just sitting at home. It just... sucks.
Also, that dream... I hate living in the Netherlands. I truly hate it. I always felt that I don't belong here. So I wanted to move to another country someday. But because of my disability, I can't. The Dutch government pays me social security, but whenever I move to another country, they'll stop my income. And I only qualify for a social security in another country if I am able to pay three years worth of taxes.
*hugs back* I'd like that... Do you still use your bethycool655 msn?
Omg can we please fangirl about Sherlock together? I am in serious need of someone who shares my obsession love for that show.
THAT WOULD BE SO AWESOME. Yeah, I'd like that! Maybe we can :3
Also, now that I'm already rambling with honesty and such... I get so fucking insecure every time I talk to you xD I'm really insecure about my use of the English language, so whenever I talk to a native speaker, I'm always afraid to make mistakes and such and god, I never have that fear when I actually speak to someone irl... And now I feel foolish for saying this xD
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