oh my god...
urgh... are you aware of how dramatic you are? aware of how you constantly have to have everyones eyes on you? its annoying... and how one little tiny thing i say can be blown up into a huge ordeal... what the hell is that? argh... so anyways... i went to betty's and it felt good to be able to be like "Ya know... i have all this pent up rage towards people and no way to filter it out" because honestly... thats the way i feel... i feel like a walking time bomb... like at any second someone can say something so tiny and its gonna really piss me off and im gonna start screaming at them...maybe thats why lately ive been so cagey... why... i dont want to be around large masses of people at a time... my max is like 4 before i feel too crowded... i dont know... other than that... he makes me feel so good...about everything... "how can something so perfect be so depressed" i wanted to hold him forever and cry and explain to him that i just dont know... i wish i did... because if i knew id be able to just stop it... but i dont and its frusterating...
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