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ugh... i hate how you can make me feel so bad about not telling you something... im sorry jesus christ im sorry i dont just open up to you about shit... im sorry that im such a horrible fucking girlfriend and you had to call and talk to ashley... im sorry that i make it seem like we're "two totally seperate people" and im sorry i dont tell you everything anymore... i do it to protect you... why do you need to know why im so depressed... or how much it hurt me to hear that you called and talked to ashley for 3 hours because you didnt want to "make me cry" fuck i'm sorry im not good enough for you... im sorry that i didnt think it was that important to tell you how much it hurt me... im fucking sorry im not perfect enough for you... i'm sorry i feel like everyones holding me to this pedestal and i dont want to be there... im sorry everyone expects me to be so perfect and so happy and im sorry sometimes i just can't...im sorry im so sick of worrying about how much longer i have with you... im sorry it makes me cry... im so fucking sorry... if i could make it better... i would...
♥ jossy
♥ jossy