I can honestly say
That I don't know what I want to do with my life as a whole anymore.
I know bits and pieces thats about it.
What I know:
1.) I want to move out this summer.
2.) Attend Mott for a year
3.) Transfer to a school in California
Thats all I know.
I've always wanted to be a lawyer, my whole life
and now I'm just like well what if that isn't for me
what if I want something else.
What is it that I want, the thing I absolutely need.
I can't believe everything thats been going on
I'm not who I used to be and I'm never going to be
Through my ups and downs,
Kendra is the only one I've told most of everything to
The only one I know that truely and honestly cares about me.
I miss her dearly, and can't wait to visit.
She is more than a cousin, shes a best friend, a sister to me.
There is too many miles between Michigan and California.
So here I am pouring some confessions into my live journal of everything I miss.
I miss feeling like I belong
Feeling certain about my future
Knowing that people truely care
I wish I could put my heart out there and honestly know it wasn't going to get smashed.
I wish I was sure of the feelings people have for me.
I wish I could know how Jenny is doing Hopefully good.
I don't hate her, I just know things won't ever be the same and neither will we.
My goals and preconcieved notions are beginning to change, or just end completely.