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well not too much is new. tyler n i have said the last goodbyes and umm thats about it.i haven't slept yet even tho oh gosh i wish i couldniki n aaron and home with louis for the weekend that is a lil stressful. i'm going to the races after the paris fair it should be fun...but somehow it feels like a part of me is missing. i thought leaving tyler n taking him back outa my life would be easy like it was the frist time but no. it is actualy really hard for me to do this. i hate caring for someone. jeffy is happy about the choice i made but i knew he would be but i don't think he understands how hard it is. i wish there was somoen who just understood how hard it is and omeone i could talk to. it is a never ending love hurt triangle. i hate it i have given up everything that ever ment soemthing to me for this ass whole n he still thinks its his right to fuck me over i wish soo much tha the ahd never walked into my life then it wouldn't be so hard to let him lol or push him back out. oh well i think i found someone new he is reallly nice to. a lil older tho but his g/fs have a reccord of leaving for the ex's so that might fuck me over if i can't forget tyler. :| i donnow aht to do anymore all i know is what i'm trying ot do is best.