Regret.

[brokengirl]

It is in the awakening of dormant fears during the mourning of misled choices that I have to say, I let myself down.  At my age, you would think I would stop overestimating the wrong people and underestimating the right people.

oh and You, the one who cant grasp my "cryptic messages," given that you still try to read them:
If my words require a key to figure out then I suppose you're not meant to understand them.